Bad Romance

Charmaine Ortiz – Carolina Beach, NC
Search: “How to draw a Woman”, Male Perspectives from YouTube result pages 1-50, 2012, 10:00

Drawing is my means of revealing, understanding, and coping with the physical, social, and political structures in the world around me. As form of imaging, the process of drawing is capable of recording and reflecting the human psyche from individual-personal to broader attributes of thought. This video is an extension of my drawing practice, it explores social disconnects between male the female via private projections on a worldwide audience through social media (YouTube). Created by a man for a man? What makes a woman, what makes her attractive, what makes her lovable?

Search: “How To Draw a Woman” is a collection of YouTube videos compiled from male authors who describe the techniques and attributes necessary for portraying a woman. The result pages 1-50 reveal that “to draw a woman” not only consists of understanding an overall bodily form, but the successful capture of specific feminine aspects: smooth face, flowing hair, delicate hands, sexy eyes, etc. The male perspectives create varied views on the differing mechanisms of anatomy while noting aspects of beauty and physical flaw. Their tutorial voices are revealing since many of them are creating their women from memory, making their drawings appear as psychological mirrors of themselves. Interestingly as they create their images they openly give instructions to an outsider (the viewer) on how they too can create a similar view. In this regard, YouTube not only allows these men to project and broadcast themselves (unconscious fears and desires) but it also projects back onto the spectator notions of gender, beauty, and fantasy.

*Gendering Virtual Space
Private Space (Room) vs. Shared Space: Home Computer vs. Network of Computers (interactions of male and female users)--Worldwide Web- Roaming
Societal identities and expectations of women shaped by male users and promoted/shared via public processes= social media
YouTube Broadcast Yourself--Broadcasting The Private Self to the Public, Supposed shared ownership of public virtual space but maintained and adapted by men accordingly

There is no real private shelter for women we are in the open---constantly watched and reshaped to fit ever changing societal expectations and identities